My Forbidden Boss: Enemies To Lovers Romance (Blue Sky Empire Book 1) by C E Ross & Charmaine Ross

Author:C E Ross & Charmaine Ross [Ross, C E & Ross, Charmaine]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Charmaine Ross
Published: 2023-02-14T18:30:00+00:00

Chapter 20

Adeline

Monday morning sitting at my desk and my stomach turns inside out and the taste of last week’s breakfast sits in my mouth. I took the early train to New York from Moss Creek. I wanted to stay with Mom as long as possible, even though it meant less sleep for me this morning. Delay tactic 101.

It’s eight in the morning and I’ve already been awake for six hours. I’m not tired. My nerves keep me awake better than any energy drink. I’m wired, my whole body attuned to every footfall coming down the hallway. My nerves are stripped. I’m raw. On edge. Jumpy.

Andrea comes in. Her gaze rakes my form as I hunch over my laptop and pretend I’m working hard, but my fingers are numb and I don’t see the computer screen. She doesn’t offer me more than that. No ‘good morning’, or ‘how was your weekend’. I get frost, but frost is good because I’m not capable of anything except waiting for David to come into work.

It’s been two days since I said those words to him. Those fatal, final words. There’s no us.

I haven’t heard from him since. Couldn’t stop my attention straying to my cell all weekend. Couldn’t help the bone-deep disappointment when I didn’t see his call, despite Mom propping me up.

Stupid, twisted me. Wanting something yet knowing it will do me no good at all.

Maddy knows everything. She thinks I should come clean and tell David what I’m really here for. She thinks David would help me, but Maddy is a romantic while I like to see reality. We spent hours talking about it yesterday, but she’s wrong.

What I’m doing is unforgivable. I’m leaving a stain so dark and ingrained nothing will wash it away. It will be there forever. A tarnish on any relationship that might have evolved. The longer it stains, the more of me is left behind, and that is exactly what I don’t want to happen.

It was hard enough leaving David on Friday.

I have no hope if I hand more of my heart to him. There’s a risk involved and I’m one hundred percent risk-avoidance. I have to protect myself because when the time comes, I’ll be leaving without a backward glance. The more I give, the harder that will be and I need my heart to be as intact as possible.

Anything less will destroy me.

Distance from David will be my crutch. My absolute coping mechanism.

Mom said she was proud of me. She wished me a good week at work. She thinks I’m on my way to a wonderful future and I did nothing to dispel that untruth. Guilt forms a knife and stabs my heart. My blood oozes through my veins as it turns my insides into molasses and I’m sinking, suffocating, crushed, not trying to fight because this is the place I deserve. I’m stuck in the quicksand of Blue Sky and my own doing up to my neck.

I can’t look in David’s office because I

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